12.19.2007

shiroi koibito [white lover]

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"Osakini shitsureishimasu." He left before he had the chance to hear her say "Otsukaresamadesu."

The sweet iced tea helped her swallow down the bitter taste of uncertainty. Would she see him again tomorrow?

She saw him every workday at the office. She sat beside him. And not once did he glance her way. Oh how she would love to get to know him. Would his voice change in animated excitement as he would talk about things he loved doing? Would he like to spend time with her too, and get to know what book she reads and what drawings she paints?

2 years of working in the same office. 5 days a week, sometimes six. Had he known his scent would haunt her every single night, would he at least try to ask her name?

The gasping for breath struggled with the raging beating of her heart. "Tomorrow, I'll let him know tomorrow." But tomorrow never seemed to come.

It was the time when the snow started to melt. The cold february morning wind forced her to wound her arms tight to her body. She passed by a chocolate store and decided today would be the day. She grabbed a bag of brightly colored chocolate bits. Maybe, just maybe, the chocolate would make him realize what loving him this far no matter how physically close they actually were meant - bittersweet.

She arrived before him, always 5 minutes ahead. She placed the bag on his table and prepped herself to work. He walked in, strode to their corner of the room and after placing his bag on the floor, he noticed the bag of chocolates. He looked around, and opened the card. He then turned to her, asked if it was from her then shortly said thank you.

That night he asked her if it is okay to walk her home.
Of course he knew her name.

*** saw this on my desktop while cleaning out my stuff. inspired by the chocolate-giving culture of japanese women.

11.19.2007

loving the drama

autumn is when leaves change colors -
some yellow, some orange, some to red, then to brown
then they fall, leaving the tree and it's branches bare.

i was walking under these trees yesterday when a thought hit me -
these leaves make dying look so grand, so dramatic.
well, they don't really die, as in die die.
but what the heck, if dying is separation, they sure know how to make a grand show of it all.

and we die everyday too.
sometimes, just petty deaths, other times, big ones.
some call it growth.
i'd like too see it as an autumn leaf, changing it's color, saying a howling goodbye.
with no trace of regret.

winter may seem long, but spring comes in time.
chancing upon the togetherness over again.

p.s. i am scouting for a shirt that screams i love kyoto, because i do.

11.16.2007

and i allowed my heart to be tugged

rose: sent you an email!

Hi Joy,

Read this: http://www.caterina.net/archive/001082.htmland it will tug your heart.
But the there's a second comment below that will get you through :)

Happy weekend!
Rose
joy: LOVE what you sent.
joy: thank you.
joy: for knowing me and loving me through and through.
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rose: i love you joy!!